My Personal Blog

My Personal Journey: 6 Months and More

Hey yall!! How have yall been, and what have you been up to? Are you taking care of yourselves? I hope so!

I brought us some fruit this time. I hope you like it!

As for me, a lot has changed, but at the same time, nothing at all. If yall remember, I told yall I was doing better with my health, and I’m not on the life expectancy list anymore. Everything is different for me because my purposes in life have changed.

For quite a few years, I have made it a point to make the most of my memories with my family because I knew one day I wouldn’t. I used to accept bad treatment from people because I thought I had to! I felt I didn’t deserve certain things because I wouldn’t be around long enough to enjoy them.

Well, I don’t feel like that anymore.

During these few years of Covid and going through life and death situations, I learned a lot about myself. I learned I’m not as weak as I thought. I realized that people could be around you and really not care about you. They can want pieces of you but not cherish you. I learned people are more beneficial than being official. I learned to be my own hero.

Well, now I don’t have to fight anymore. I know where many people stand with me, and I don’t have to fight for a place in anyone’s life. I don’t have to worry about my children not having me around or making memories so they can remember the good times. I’m at a place where I can finally breathe.

I finally finished my last doctor’s appointment last week, for six months. I’m so happy to have some breathing room, and I can focus more on my health and not worry about getting stuck with needles.

Guess what? Since my autoimmune diseases are stable and my kidney is improving, my body doesn’t hurt anymore. I can work out for up to an hour, and I don’t get cramps in my legs and body like I used to. I know, pretty epic! I still have issues with my heat and cold intolerances, but I am willing to pay that small price to be able to move like my old self. Maybe one day in the fall we can go camping and do a small hike!? Never say never!

I love camping! I love being barefoot and letting the sun hit my face!

I also have been on a little rogue behavior since I got a second chance at life. I went to Dave and Buster’s. I went out for pizza and sat in the restaurant. I actually went out quite a few times and sat down and ate. Yes, I Did!! I even walked around without a mask on once, and I felt FREE! I have been going to different parks in my city to check out new scenery, and I even went to the ice cream parlor and ate ice cream.

Check out the ice cream choices!
This is a brownie sundae with cookie dough pieces and walnuts. OMG, it was so good. Natlie and I shared, and can you believe this was small?

I feel like I have been living the high life and quickly checking things off my bucket list. My bucket list may not be elaborate as some, but it’s mine! I’m taking baby steps!

Ok, yall, I wanted to tell you what I’ve been up to and to let you know I had yall on my mind. As always sending you Big Hugs and Warm Smiles.







My Personal Blog

A New Mindset: Rebel Mode Activated

I am BACK!!

To my readers, did you miss me? I missed you!! I have so many great things to share and I am so glad to be back.

Yall, I think I was having a mini-breakdown. Let me explain, I felt like the walls of the world were closing in on me, and I was slowly suffocating. I started basing my day on the news I read on social media or any news media outlet, especially Newsweek. I stopped doing things I loved and felt a sense of dread. I kept thinking I had to do everything in a single day because I may not wake up from war, or covid, or because of my autoimmune diseases. I feel I was self-sabotaging myself, and I feel I was causing panic within my family.

Not only that, Natlie has been ill and in the past two months had two surgeries. One was on February 9, 2022, for her fibroids, and one was performed yesterday April 5, 2022, for her wisdom teeth being removed. She was really sick, and it made me scared, nervous, and upset.  Did you know you can die from having mouth issues? Her wisdom teeth were so bad and infected they were like we need to remove then not now but RIGHT NOW!

From there my conversations started to consist of only a few topics. I started only talking about war, death, disease, and despair. It’s funny now but my youngest child, Mackenzie, asked me could she go outside one more time before we die? All I could think about was the skit from Queens of Comedy, and I didn’t want to be that grandmother. So I decided to make a change.

Guess what I did, I stopped everything. I actually went on ME vacation. I stopped reading the news, I stopped doing all the things that I was doing,  and I had to cut my time from social media. If it wasn’t for Making Paradise At Home, I chose to not entertain it. I got so into my ME vacation that I even skipped a few chores. I am not ashamed, I feel fabulous and I don’t feel defeated because I didn’t wash that load of clothes. It is safe to say, I became a REBEL.

Then I decided to do something I hadn’t done in a long time. I went out to eat with the family and enjoyed myself.

Carrabba’s Italian Restaurant

Of course, I followed the social distancing rules and protected myself, but I didn’t worry about restrictions,  I didn’t worry about a bomb or war, I didn’t think of anything but just having a good time. Something miraculous happened, I actually had an amazing time.

I decided to up the ante and gathered the family and we went to the park. Yall, I took my mask off and took the deepest breath I could. Needless to say, it was packed full of pollen, and yes, I am an allergy sufferer, but I did it, and I feel those sniffles and puffy eyes were well worth the deep breath!! I walked around the park huffing and puffing working out and feeling the burn. I got on swings, and jungle gyms, and before I knew it, Natlie and I had other parents playing on the park equipment as well.

Click to read

From there I got so into my ME vacation I started a book I had been wanting to read, and currently, I am mad at this Lycan King name Edward, he better be glad he is fictional, he doesn’t know me. You not just gonna manhandle the princess like that. I just made myself mad thinking about it. We need a moment of silence….. and we are back!

On my ME vacation, I learned something, there is nothing wrong with taking time for yourself. There is nothing wrong with just doing nothing. It’s okay to just be. Nothing more nothing less. Most importantly, I am glad I got to do it with my family. I made some pretty amazing memories.

With all that said, I am back and I just wanted to send big hugs to everyone.

Until next time! Keep smiling!!!