(WARNING: Profanity will be used!!)
Hey yall, I know it has been almost a month, but I needed some downtime to get my head together.
A lot has happened, but at the same time, not a lot has happened at all. The roof where the solar panels were leaking is FINALLY fixed, but the ceiling is still not fixed. How about the solar panel company fixed the leak but left a water bottle under the solar panels. SMH… I can’t make this up. They decided that instead of doing two work orders to fix the ceiling and remove the water bottle, to let the ceiling contractor remove it instead. Yall, the water bottle is still up there after three weeks. Still waiting on the ceiling contractors because they have to give the quote to the solar panel people to get started.
I’m trying to be patient, I’m trying to be understanding, but I’m about to feel my kindness is being FUCKED WITH! Excuse my french, but I am at my wit’s end. That good nerve I had.. that sucker has been played on and jumped rope on so much I’m trying not to wish a motherfucker would. It sounds funny, but deep down, you know I’m being as honest as a heart attack about to happen on a 500 lb woman at the Heart Attack Grill in Las Vegas.
Recently, I have been in this space where I am not content with my present living style. You know when you can feel yourself evolving inside, and the things that you used to enjoy don’t tickle your fancy anymore. Inside, you feel things changing, and you know you can’t stay where you are, but you are nervous about what is in the future. That’s how I feel. I can feel like there’s a change in the atmosphere, and I’m trying to stay grounded. It is hard to stay grounded when you feel like you walking in uncharted territory. Am I making sense?
Guess what else had been going on? Natlie had a birthday on October 30. She is the big 41, and you would think the age means something, but it doesn’t! She still gets carded. She had to work on her birthday, which also rained, but we had a little party at home when she got off. We even started on the Hocus Pocus 2 movie. It is so freaking good.
How was your Halloween? We didn’t do anything this year outside of the house. Phatty (Mackenzie) was a witch, and Madison was a vampire enchantress. She ended up being a witch when her fangs fell out.
Some of their friends stopped by for a few minutes but other than that, it was a quiet Halloween. If I had to say I wore an outfit, I would say I had the Housewife Nappy Headed Mother of Two look going on, and I must say I was FIERCE. From head to toe, you couldn’t tell me anything. I even had a hair clip stuck in my head to pull off the finishing touches. What did you dress up or down as? I know somebody was representing in their birthday suit, and somebody else was getting Chocolate wasted on children’s candy… you can’t judge me. We may be different, but we are the same.
Ok yall, I just needed to get some stuff off my chest. It’s been a hell of a ride, and I’m trying to keep holding on. It is funny; people want to tell you how to live your life, but they are not around when it is slinging you from left to right. You trying to catch your breath in the midst of your storm, and people looking at you, not saying a word. Naw, Mr. Post-Man… read the room now. Old Fake Leader Wanna-Be. You gotta let people know. Stay in Your Lane, Peter!!!
As always, sending you Big Hugs and Warm Smiles.